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what i feel is right, as what i wanted to feel is right..
what i see is right, as what i wanted to see is what it is...
what i sense is right, as what i wanted to sense is that sensation...
what i touch is abstract, as i wanted to touch but i could not...
what i hold is nothing, as what i wanted to hold has fallen...
i wanted to know everything i wanted to know,
but i could not have the chance to get it....
why n how only i could really find out the truth?
why n how only i could really feel what i would like to feel?
sensing and capturing could not show me the climax or the peak,
i guess i need to know it by myself....
could i?