life is going on....

although we had done all the tests and assignments, stress is still flowing around.
another 2 n the half weeks, final exams turn up.
stress again!! haiz.... when only all these will end? its kind of boring and frustrating.
totally a mess. not even a sequence of life over here.
problems and problems. solutions and solutions. troubles and troubles.
when its going to end?
co-operations, hard work and pre-union is gonna end soon, because we are choosing the new timetable for the next trimester. soon, we will be broken into groups. well, shall we say a temporary goodbye?
hahax... no idea to desribe that. anyway, take care my friends.
wow, im looking forward for this friday, im going back to hometown!!
yes!! so happy. it has been 3 months not being in penang with my family. miss them lots... arghx... my piano is gone. so, cant see it anymore. miss it lots la... the new owner must take good care of it yea... its my success and my precious baby. farewell, pianoby. bring success to the new owner too.

broken~

i am sorry ....

sorry.............

undescridable feeling~

how wise must i be?
why must i face all these problems?
why must all problems appear in front of me?
cant just let them flow away?
i cant hold on anymore ....
i wish everyone happy... i wish i could brightens ppl's life...
but i made it worse....
i tried to....
tried to be very very wise...
tried to ....
i really don't know what to do....
can anyone tel me?
why must i be the one who solve ?
n why should the solution and the ending will be me?
why i would like to carry those responsibilities?
i am not that mean....
please... i am not that mean....
i am not...

how u call it?

when someone hurts you,
what will you feel?
when someone breaks your heart,
what will you consider?
when someone back stab you,
what will you do?
when someone you loved hurts you,
what can u react?
when someone u cared betrayed you,
what can you do?
when someone closest to you hates you,
what can i resist?
when someone furthest from you care about you,
how will you response?
when someone ask how you call these?
i will say its an experience to me...
as i know who to love and who to care....

Forgive...~

i shall forgive you if you could forgive urself,
i shall forgive you if you could show your increment,
i shall forgive you if you could see your trueself,
i shall forgive you if you could show your sincerity,
i shall forgive you if you could forgive others,
i shall forgive you if you could know the truth,
i will forgive you as to forgive you,
because you are my friend...

why?

i cant resist...
i cant hold on....
i cant keep it up....
i cant just....
i really cant resist....
what can i do?
i really cant hold on....
who can held on for me?
i really cant keep up....
how would i be?
i really cant just....
why?
am i invisible to u all?
am i just a tool or a toy?
or am i just a doll which cant help you?
why?
i cant understand...
i don have the mood to understand....
why!!??

ideas... ideas....

weren't everyone is having a relaxation?
weren't all problems are solved?
weren't all the troubles and moubles are gone?
weren't all stress and pressure are mounted away?
weren't everything is back to normal?
i think the world is still in the dark side,
although everything has overcomed.
weren't human still a kind?
weren't human's heart can be sustained?
weren't human's skills can be predicted?
weren't everything can be sensed?
i think the world is still full of question marks,
though everything has been answered.
this is because human's heart is unpredictable....

hahax.... comp presentation....

what the!! why am i doing that post? like aunty oni...

where is wen ge? ^ there he is... lolx....

wow.... united... 6 in 1.... woohooo.....

aiya... we r having a slight discuss... wahhahax....

emoing.....

wong hann you... is he cute? hahax.. actually his nervous....

cool post....

wen guang... eyes prob... hahax... having eye contact la....

our group leader, Ong Yew Sin... hahax... steady but shaky....

is he singing? no... his preeching.... lolx.....

wow....

wow, u will not see the world,
wow, u will not see the truth,
wow, u will not see the triumph,
wow, u will not see everything,
wow becuz u take everything meaningless...
wow, u will not see that person's heart,
wow, u will not see that person's behaviour,
wow, u will not see that person's actions,
wow, u will not see that person's cruelty,
wow becuz u will never understand the wicky of us...
wow becuz u r the cruel n the wicked one....
wow becuz u r the one who controls everything....
wow becuz u r the one who plans everything....
wow becuz u r the one who betrayed everyone behind their back...
wow becuz u r the back stabber...
wow becuz u r the culprict....
don't ever wow if u r not the wower....!!

1175....

To: My dearest housemates

U guys are great. And u guys will still be the best in my heart. whenever im sad, after seeing u al, i will be happy. everytime i have problems, u guys will surely share with me. Its my great gift to stay in 1175 with all of you. No matter we r staying in which floor, we all still can chit chat with each other. its just like a big family. I was so shocked to have such a wonderful house - not as i expected. My mom said its god's gift. i hope everyone in this house will always appreciate each other. take care yo!! I will miss u guys in the future. LOVE u girls...

TE1

Arghx.... I love my classmates though... they are so cute. Most of them are caring and nice. Sometimes they were busy with their stuff, they are still willing to spend time 2gether. What a wonderful classmates! hahax.... Actually get to be in TE1 is my fortune. I had no idea how to describe my class. i could say is they r always supporting me. no matter what i do, no matter wt i did, they r still right beside me. thanks to TE1... U all brought me happiness. TQ!

After all.....

After that incident, i found out that its just a coincidence. although we have a kind of 'jodoh', we r still having a gap between us. After i had sensed the whole thing, i noticed that im not qualified. I have no idea what makes me disqualified. But its 'a' sure that i had lost my battle. moreover, its my failure because i was not his boom after all.
My friends are having problems with each other. I would like to help them but i have no sense of solutions for their problem. I would like to share their sadness by helping them but i just could lend them my ears. That's all I could do. Am i useless? Or just that im an ousider? I hope that they could be happy as long they know that i am always supporting them.
To : Kelvin and friends
i hope u guys can recover soon. kelvin, u must pray to God for protection. HE will always save you from everything including death. i will pray for u too. The rest of my friends, u guys must take good care of urself. now H1N1 is spreading widely. i dont wanna see anyone of u fall sick. we shall pray hard 2gether to combat H1N1. please pray along with me. take care of others too. Thank you....

whenever u pass by....

Whenever u pass by, there is a slight wind. whenever u pass by, there is a kind of warmness. Whenever u pass by, there is an attachment to me. whenever u pass by, i feel happy and my heart is beating very fast. but if u did not pass by, my day will be down and feel worried. Whenever i see u, i feel safe. whenever i had a glance on u, i feel happy enough. Whenever u r sad, i hope to make u happy but i do not know how to entertain. Im sorry. whenever u r happy, i wanted to share ur happiness but u rather to share with others. Im speechless. whenever u need me, Im here. though Im here, u will never look for me either. U will still prefer to look for her. Maybe Im just a normal and plain friend to u. Anyway u r not just a normal friend to me. i hope u will always be happy. Take care...

Bio test ar....

Hahax... everyone is afraid of test and exams i guess... Erm... i am one of them but this time i didn't even study for it. haiz... i think i gonna be in a big trouble. Wooo... Hahax... this is kinda big fear to me. this is because i had never try my best to get into it. BIO!! arghx.... why la must always have test yor... U know la i do not like to study for test. Ish... 2nite will be my nightmare. haiz. i wish others all the best! i hope all the best from me too... hahax....

Bad feelings...

I....I....I.... am having a bad feeling. A very very bad feeling. this is because i fall in love already. i had forgotten the meaning and the feeling of being in love or to love since those things happened. I tried to forget it but those memories are still crawling in my head. after 2 and the half years, i still can remember those scenes and sad moments. i still cant forget the pain and sufferings. Maybe others had a worse situation, but i believe my pain is worth for my life. due to this experience, i had learnt to be much more tougher than before. i had learnt to love myself more. i had learnt that give up is also a type of love. honestly, giving up a relationship is a very difficult thing to handle. Forget a deep in loved person is not an easy job. Its a bravo to those who can succeed in doing this. some people said love must surely own and have that particular person. but to some people, by wishing others happiness is only called as love. however, to me, letting love to flow in and out is more suitable. This is because im not qualified to love and being loved by others. I will regret soon...

The world

Have you seen the world is being bright and dark forever? Have you seen that actually our world is full of colors rather than black and white? Eventually, our world is full of wonderful scenes such as some beautiful phenomena and being filled by all types of people. this is a gift to us. although we felt that the world is unfair, we will still love the world as how the world appreciate our presence. Love is very essential in our life. being in this world, you must know how to love and care about others. you must ensure that you are qualified to be in this world that is to love others as to love yourselves. Only loving person is qualified in this world. As we know, human is the weakest species. thus, as a human we must always care for each other to preserve our human population. So, friends, we should always stand by and conserve our friends around us. we must always appreciate what we have and what we gain. take care buddies!!

what happen?

After 3 months in kampar, i felt that myself isn't myself. I have the feeling that i had change... I had no idea which part of me has changed. I had no idea too why i am so interrupted. What has happen to me? Is it too hectic or just a moment of drastic mood swing? i had no idea...
I had a feeling that i am no longer that capable anymore... I am lack of care, love, and etc. I had done many stuff which i had not done since decade ago. I'm having weird feelings again recently. Those feelings which i had not experience since 2 years ago. i though i will not be able to feel and being touched. but i had failed to maintain that determination... Failure!!