what happen?

After 3 months in kampar, i felt that myself isn't myself. I have the feeling that i had change... I had no idea which part of me has changed. I had no idea too why i am so interrupted. What has happen to me? Is it too hectic or just a moment of drastic mood swing? i had no idea...
I had a feeling that i am no longer that capable anymore... I am lack of care, love, and etc. I had done many stuff which i had not done since decade ago. I'm having weird feelings again recently. Those feelings which i had not experience since 2 years ago. i though i will not be able to feel and being touched. but i had failed to maintain that determination... Failure!!